it's been a while...

so the last time i blogged i had a four year old, two year old and had just found out i was pregnant. now i have a five year old {kindergartener!}, three year old and baby girl #3 is due in exactly 100 days! yikes. i guess a lot can happen in 5 months. i wish i could say i had a good excuse, but mostly i was sick of blogging. it just wasn't working for me with crazy pregnancy sickness kicking in and feeling like my kids needed the good parts of me. honestly, it felt so good to not feel guilty for not posting every single picture i take. i'm not saying i'm back on the train, but i do miss being able to look back and see all the written details of our lives. instagram isn't exactly the same.

now about my kindergartener. i promise i'm not a cryer. even in pregnancy it takes a lot to make me tear up. and i thought i was ok with sophie taking this first big step in life, even if i had been dreading it her entire existence. i even made it through the whole first day without so much as a wet eye. but there was something about the first time she rode the bus on the second day... i lost it. she pretty much saw the bus coming and never looked back. first one in line, first one to march on, first one to not miss mom. ok maybe i made that last part up. you know i drove over to the school to stalk her getting off. i hid in between the parked cars in the parking lot to see her run off the bus with all her new friends like she knew exactly what she was doing. and then back in the car, the tears rolled. how did this happen? i still feel like she's the little girl screaming her guts out in nursery because she'd rather hang out with mom than play with kids and fun toys. i knew eventually she wouldn't need me for everything in life, i just didn't expect it to happen this fast and rip my heart out. but on the other end of it, i'm so proud of the girl she is growing up to be. she is obedient like no other, so incredibly honest and passionate, and loves learning. we sure do miss her every day, but i'm excited for the journey she has begun.

we also had a nice little family home evening, where landen gave the girls father's blessings. they both sat so still and were so mature about it. they loved it so much they asked if we could do it again the next night. 

and now for a photo dump that will mostly only mean something to me someday. i love my soph.

can you tell who the silly sister is in our family?

such a big backpack on a tiny person

so big walking into school

apparently her school and i had the same idea with the sign holding.

the pta was taking pictures of all the kids. so cute.

didn't even ask me what to do. she marched in, put her backpack on the hook, and walked over to her teacher to ask where to sit. ok.

at least she's not embarrassed of me yet! she will always pose for my picture taking... and then right back to work.

p looks up to her big sister so much. even though she misses the play time (or i miss the play time) she has loved being my little buddy everyday. she makes sure to always pick out a treat for soph if we are at the store.

my sidekick. in the middle of a hot game of go fish. which we play every. single. day.

day 2 waiting for the bus. {you can see it in the corner}

no looking back. so ready to ride that bus alone!

and there she goes.

update after her first week: she made sure to turn around and wave at me the second time riding the bus. especially after i reminded her to never forget me! now she sits next to the window so she can wave at her mom every day. she came home this week with a fever and a cough so i guess kindergarten has been getting the best of her. she stayed home tuesday and wednesday and then went back on thursday. she tries to remember details and new friends' names so she can fill me in on all the juicy details. so far so good!

ps... i now have no idea what i'm doing on blogger. kind of reminded me why i have enjoyed the break.